"If it is to be , it is up to me."

I believe this means thatin oder for me to become physically athletiic as I used to be, I have to put a lot of effort in it. Whatever choices I make when exercising, determines how my body will turn out. If I want it to happen, I have to strongly desire it to happen. I truly desire to be the athletic girl that I used to be and better. I'm willing to put lots of effort forward to accomplish this goal. It is completely up to me whether I get fit or not.